The title's true. I messed up today. BIG time. Had a family dinner today and had to eat a roll and two spoons of lima beans. Then after I messed up then, I couldn't stop. I messed up big time....
*Sigh*... I was doing so well. I was down to 111lbs and bmi of 16.5. Why'd I have to go screw it up? See, I have a bad habit: If I mess up and eat, say, a pudding cup- a normal person would be like "Whoops, I shouldn't have done that. To make up for that, I won't eat anything else today." But ME, the CRAZY person, says "Crap. The day is ruined. I'm not skinny anymore. May as well eat more now that you've already bummed the day." and I eat another.
Man....I feel like a failure right now. Kinda feel like crying. This full feeling in my stomach is the feeling of someone who can't control themselves. The feeling of average. The feeling of fat.
Stay strong and learn from my screw-ups.
Me.
Hun,
ReplyDeleteyou're NOT a failure, to make it that far is good. so what you messed up, even the strongest of us mess up at least once in a while. Tomorrow is a new day remember that, you can start a fresh. *hugs*