First time for everything....

So, this is a blog, I suppose.... I've never really "blogged" before, so pardon me if I'm no good at it.

I'm going to just get right down to it and avoid any fancy introductions and simply own up to why I'm hear: I'm sick of the on/off cycle. I want to stay at this once and for all and I feel that if I somehow "confess" everything online, it will guilt me into staying with it.

This "on/off" cycle I speak of is me and my eating disorder. Man...it feels lovely and evil at the same time to have just said that aloud. "My eating disorder". It's been my best friend and my worst enemy for about four years now. I go for months hardly eating and losing pounds by the day, than I step back and say "You idiot. What are you even trying to do?" and eat normally for a month or so. Then I look in the mirror, see the evidence of "health" and start all over again. Ugh...."health"...I hate that look.

I think this blog is going to be good for me. I think it will help me accomplish big things. My journey starts tonight, 6lbs away from my goal.

Thank you for joining me. I like company.