Gah....feeling fat. Obese, actually. All of that "Starve-for-over-three-days-and-only-lose-two-pounds" business was bringing me down. I ate. a LOT. Probably over 1,000cals. Yep, I suck at life = /
So, since my latest weight-loss and food limitations, there's a few things I've noticed:
1. My fingers/nails turn blue
2. My hands/feet get tingly and numb
3. My bum hurts. (It's literally like I'm just setting on two knots now, and I haven't even lost THAT much weight! I honestly can't sit on a hard chair for more than a few minutes. I need a little-old-lady bum-pillow! Tehe)
4. Diet Orange Soda is where it's AT!
5. My skin is horrible. Simply horrible.
6. I shake. Badly.
7. My period's late...and very....different. Shorter, not really a "period" at all.
8. Joint pain. Yeah, it sucks.
9. No, your stomach never learns to shut the heck up during class. It is, and always WILL be, a loud mouth.
10. I am somehow in love with each and every one of these things.
Stay strong, lovely's.
Torr
Torr,
ReplyDeleteI've just read all your posts & my heart is totally breaking for you. I wish that you could see (sometimes it sounds like you can) that you don't have to be so thin to be beautiful. You are truly beautiful the way you are, already.
The list of things you are experience is scary. You have said a couple of times that you feel so alone & want someone to notice, or some help. Please, please look for that help. Talk to a doctor, or a counsellor, or someone in your family that you are close to. I can only imagine how hard it will be but where you're at now is so dangerous.
Praying for you xxx
I've been there. It's scary. It's painful. And I know that it sucks getting out of it. SO MUCH. but it's worth it getting out of it. I promise you.
ReplyDeleteIt's been a year since you posted. I check back, now and then. I hope you're okay x x x
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